gone

wonder of the world

2007-07-14T23:34:00.000+08:00

the batteries have been changed, say good-bye to the slightest inconvenience my dear.

i feel.. closer

ohhh

2007-07-08T02:25:00.000+08:00

the night is so.. quiet. the situation in my mind's more or less the same, thankfully. I fear waking up tomorrow. I'd put myself through this mental toture, i wonder why? and then i'd have to drag people(esp. you) down into this quicksand situation i'm in. Everyone's trying to pull me out but i cant believe that i have the ability to get myself out(with help, of course). Soon, friends, tough men will outlast his tough times. Before everyone gets tired of my nonsense.

It's time to wake up, eugene. Like they say(and i agree), it's all up in the mind.

30 June 2007

2007-06-30T21:30:00.000+08:00

A day to/will be remembered.

The many first-times.

roarr

2007-06-26T18:48:00.001+08:00

the stress's turning into pimple-man rawrrrr.

soon

2007-06-25T19:18:00.000+08:00

its been.. 2 months? since i last took an afternoon nap. I think it's because of the intense SSP sessions tt the school came up with long ago. Now my body's accustomed not to take naps. Or maybe it's because of other reasons; Like a racing heart to nowhere.

soon i'll have to close this space. haha, its getting a little too personal

today

2007-06-22T20:41:00.000+08:00

the moment when our eyes locked, my cold, dark winter night turned into a sweet, warm spring morning. I don't know if you felt it, instead of our mouths, our eyes did the talking.

tts a crime i committed today. hee.

crunk

2007-06-18T22:42:00.000+08:00

life is but an unsolved mystery.

heehee

2007-06-16T23:10:00.000+08:00

today was great. It's already in my archives.
But i'm still wondering.. why did i recieve so many things today? haha which made me so happy. heeeee.

boogie

2007-06-16T09:42:00.001+08:00

weatherman says its going to rain today. argh!

turn it off

2007-06-15T00:11:00.000+08:00

Reality bit me today, hard. This society is, real. They say situations change a person, but i think it's the people around these people who cause them to stay the same.

And for the anonymous person on my cbox.. i would very much appreciate it if you'd meet me in person to have a talk wtih me on what you want to say or you can remove this url from your sites to visit, unless you REALLY have nothing to do, cos you're getting on my nerves. I hope you find me not that provoking.

and i cant express how thankful i am to you.

if only i knew

2007-06-04T21:03:00.001+08:00

Today was crazy. haha really crazy. In the morning went to macdonald's before school to have some latte. hah. a little chill-out/study with some company.

However i landed myself into some misunderstanding in the afternoon. I thought you cared for him which was why you wanted to talk to him(which i so hope isn't the reason). In the end i found out you wanted to do something to clear up the mess (i guess) i made. Plain stupidity on my part. Empty apologies dont mean nuts, i guess actions do.

the realization,
my heart burned.
The feeling of desperation.
eyes looked around,
scanned the horizon,
for my heart's desire.
my heart longed to head to central,
i had to comb the area.
For fear of missing sight.
Past the childcare(s),
past the transport station.
And down the long road
i galloped on my steed.
But,
There's always a BUT,
i still couldnt find.
think. ponder. head-scratch.
you could be on a bus.
I took comfort in that knowledge,
with a mass of faith and risk.
On the way there,
i saw my fair maiden,
(or her back)
looking into the distance.
keep the change i said.
huff huff puff puff.
I Found You.

haha that was just some poem(?) i thought of.
A memory that stays etched would be one worth having lived out.
I would have no regrets.

where and when

2007-06-03T10:16:00.000+08:00

Something between my lungs has been locked somewhere in a dark cupboard. And i guess its gonna make home there. (:

life

2007-05-31T23:43:00.001+08:00

tonight eugene sleeps with a heavy heart.

do you do you

2007-05-31T19:24:00.000+08:00

Today was GREAT. FABULOUS. EXTRAORDINARY. You looked so damm fine. Like so Psssst. hot. I almost couldnt take it. What about me, lol i looked so uncle. haha. Breakfast was great. Due to unforseen circumstances/changes i couldnt execute my surprise, however i really enjoyed myself today. Hope you did too. Nevermind, i'll wait for another opportunity.

I'm on the verge of doing things that would make me lose my tie/status. I'm just >this< close. If he crosses my path again he'll be in for a treat. K let's just think of the positive and not about the negative. haha.

Well,
somehow i think that we can last.

relief

2007-05-28T20:44:00.000+08:00

Last night i was SUPER SIAN. I had some sort of a panic attack. I couldnt sleep from 11pm-3am. :@ grrr. I had no choice but to dial some numbers. Sorry i didn't want to disturb you. Haha i bet you wont see this. hah.

At least i got my money's worth(typical s'porean). They gave us the question paper of the mother tongue paper. HAH! Now that chinese is over, i'm looking forward to bak kut teh. heehee. And i got a surprise in store... heh heh heh.

over and out.

new chapter of an old book

2007-05-24T22:21:00.000+08:00

I think that my sweet 16 was SUPER SWEET. Lol. I got in touch with my feminine side. Furthermore a few of my friends had first hand experience. But really, i really thought you forgot. But it all turned out as a surprise. I'm really moved by your actions. It's not just yst, but for all the times you sacrificed for me. During the dramatic episode, when i saw you, i really just wanted to hug you and never let you go. Wonder if you felt the same. hah. But i'm not going to let that happen again. T'was really uber dramatic. Lol.

For all the people,
for all the people who celebrate their birthdays,
with physical disabilities,

For all the people,
for all the people who celebrate their birthdays,
with no one,

For all the people,
for all the people who celebrate their birthdays,
with a broken heart,

For all the people,
for all the people who celebrate their birthdays,
with heavy hearts,

For all the people, for all the people,
who can't celebrate their birthdays,

For all the people,
for all these people,
we celebrate in your honour.

gold and silver

2007-05-20T00:30:00.000+08:00

i appreciate you.

argh

2007-05-18T22:26:00.000+08:00

Grrr i feel so damm bad. I kinda blame myself for what happened/did not happen today. If only... ARGH. I feel like ripping myself apart.

sometimes

2007-05-16T19:51:00.000+08:00

All you need is a little hope to bring you through suffering. I was at the brink of hopelessness today. I really felt so disappointed(in myself) and so hopeless. Why? All because of the crappy mother tongue. Its really a difficult subject to master. Its kinda the total opposite of english. If you read my comprehension answers for the mid years, you'd realise that its the direct translation from english. Well, someone really lifted my spirits today. Sometimes i wonder what i'd do without (insert whatever you want here).

crack this code

2007-05-14T18:37:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i really dont understand the reason behind the things that i do/don't do. I was kinda pissed and disappointed in myself today. It was like my mind was shouting: go, go go! But my body held me back. Why? i really know nuts 'bout it. Given any individual i'd be able to engage in meaningful communication. BUT why cant i just.. move a few inches and open my mouth. RAWR. she's just... so special.

that's why underoath's playing now.

not a secret

2007-05-12T01:38:00.000+08:00

Guess what i did today. Lol. I'm back into playing gunbound. LOL! Its a cool way to de-stress. Sometimes its good to indulge yourself in meaningless activities. But really, since p6, gunbound hasnt changed much. Besides the avatar(clothings and stuff).

Haha if you're interested you can add twitte/kualab3ar.(i guess i didnt know how to spell koala when i was p4) hah. It's a game for ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls, children of all ages. Okay enough advertising.

Have you ever felt like a bomb? Like you're about to explode. and go "BOOM!". But when you want to detonate you lost the detonator. Well, sometimes people can explode into a mass of flowers. They dont fail to brighten your day.

heck the critics

2007-05-10T22:19:00.000+08:00

Who are the critics in your lfie? I just realised there are lots of movies out there which encourages us to not bother about the critics in your life. Like remembering the titans, freedom writers, and if i'm not wrong, friday night lights and coach carter. They kinda bring across a similar message: That you shdnt give up even if the world was against you. Haha like what ms. G said in freedom writers: (something like) treat all the voices that told you you couldn't make it as silence. Haha.

Lol because of shawn's great affection for them,:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=AFai5jmYpV4
http://youtube.com/watch?v=pEZKP5RNdCI

but i really need some of the second video.

I've just realised that i'm not the extrovert that i think i am. or maybe to only someone.

off the lights and fans

2007-05-08T22:04:00.000+08:00

I feel like i'm on a rollercoaster ride right now. hah. All i can do is scream and enjoy the ride.

Sometimes if you notice, the scene after any test will be the same. There would be some who would start discussing answers, some who would utilise the whiteboard to explain how'd they derived at their anwer. Some wouldn't bother about anything and continue life, but some will kinda stare into blank space. Which category do you belong to?

life a storybook

2007-05-05T22:52:00.000+08:00

Haha i just found out jason did what i had planned to do for very long today. He went to changi airport in the evening to enjoy the sunset and plane-watch. Haha. Since the start of this year, it has been my wish to go there to chill on the day i recieve my o level certificate. haha. Next year, next year.. choww.

whatwhatwhat

2007-05-03T22:01:00.000+08:00

Today was like the day of 'realisation' .lol.
1) I've distanced myself from a particular someone.
2) I've realised how much another someone means to me.
3) I've realised how serious i am in this - .
4) I've cleared the photochemical smog which blocked my view
5) I guess i'd have no regrets whatsoever in doing this.

Well, its like my heart spoke to me today, and poured out all its contents. Haha is this too much gore for you?

damn

2007-04-29T20:55:00.000+08:00

why is my heart beating so fast?

hope, faith and love

2007-04-28T23:45:00.000+08:00

I was just thinking today: how do you define hope, faith and love? So i went to do some 'research' on this curricular-irrelevant topic. haha. Wanted to know how to describe a feeling with words. well this is what i found:

http://education.yahoo.com/reference/dictionary/entry/hope
http://education.yahoo.com/reference/dictionary/entry/faith
http://education.yahoo.com/reference/dictionary/entry/love
enjoy, if you have nothing better to do.

someone once told me: Disappointments destroy the optimists, and hope destroys the pessimists.

fall like rain

2007-04-27T21:06:00.000+08:00

I had a good talk with pak meng this morning before school started. Well i guess i'm tying up all the loose ends. I am at a loss of what to do, what to expect. But one thing's for sure, that i know what i feel, so yeah.

Geog test today is screwed. I barely studied. Just didnt have the mood. The past 2 tests have been so demoralising that i've kinda given up on geog. But i guess not for long before i wake up.. not too long before the o levels alr. hah.

After school went to elo's house with gerald and joan. Watched a dvd. hah. and did some mugging. Well, it should be a friday. I find that every day of the week feels like a monday. hah. maybe its just me.
K back to gaming.

me and my premonitions

2007-04-23T23:11:00.000+08:00

when life sucks, it's a sign that tomorrow will be better!

blow me off my feet

2007-04-18T20:05:00.000+08:00

The day started quite bad, cos the previous day i drank shark (sth like red bull; cos i was having a headache and i had a soccer match on in the afternoon). I drank only a can. Being so tired after all the activities i had in the day, i decided to sleep at 10.30pm, which is quite early for me. But i couldnt sleep! So i went to call junyang after rolling around my bed for 1hr, lol and we started talking about guy stuff. hah. ;). And so i slept at 12am. Must be the overdosage of the caffiene. . :@. And i was so shagged in the morning.

Haha chenying was quite affected by her appearance today, hah. All i can say is that she'll look as great as ever no matter what she looks like. haha cos we're good friends.

The highlight of my day was the period after phyics (i forgot what period it was). I flew onto cloud 10 for those few seconds when i looked into my pencilcase. I'm really grateful i have friends who are concerned about me. Really heartwarming. Enough to say i that i have fallen deeper. But nevermind, i'll just continue waiting. Well again, mr tan's words keep ringing in my head, the ones about flowers and chocolates. ha!
mr tan's voice can you go awayy.

Ahh

2007-04-16T22:10:00.000+08:00

Today's soccer match was quite a disaster. Haha. We were doing quite well in the first half, but the tension between our team and the ref.. We could've won, but i guess we were too demoralised when the second half began. hah. leading to our downfall. I really had no mood to play during the second half. Haha nvm its over. Look toward tomorrow.

Today something made sense to me during history class, i wonder what it is...

do you believe

2007-04-14T22:39:00.000+08:00

The service learning project today was great. Almost everything went as planned, except that we experienced some technical glitches with the loudhailer. I really would like to thank all 4e3rians for your contribution to this project, if you're from 4e3 and you're reading this blog. Regardless of how large your contribution is, it is muchly appreciated by me, and clar too i guess. Well there's still an evaluation during the next C.E lesson.

And i was pleasantly surprised after the project today. I'm the new 4e3 class chairman. I hope i dont let mr lee down. Lol. Well starting from today i would have to alter my habits. Take for example basic attire, lol. Must go to school with the whole 'guai-kia' image. HAHA. NOTTT. Well i admit that bala has done an excellent job as the prev. class chairman, however i'm not going to attempt to fit into his shoes, instead i'd 'create my own shoes'. You dig? hah. However wearing a tie everyday might prove quite uncomfortable for the first few days. well, wad can i say. (:"

I just heard a quote from a spiderman ad on axn: 'You look into her eyes, you know what kind of man you wanna be.' found it... rather cool.

busy buzzy bee

2007-04-13T23:05:00.000+08:00

This whole week has been chaos for me. I've been super busy, and havent had much of good sleep. And tomm we have the class service learning project. Haha. Busy buzzy bee. Well chem s.p.a was easier than i thought it would be, plus they had the Q.A list to refer to. But heating a liquid without producing a gas? Sounds abit absurd but that was my answer. Ha.

This time,

2007-04-09T20:28:00.000+08:00

Athough its a little late, i still insist on wishing ziyu happy birthday. Here are some pics which i took on.. friday when ziyu chunyang aslam shawn gloria yizhen went to celebrate her birthday at east coast:

Some picture which looks very nice on my hp

invisi-friend

from this

To that

I tell you

2007-04-07T23:08:00.000+08:00

Linkin park's new album is SUPER TIGHT. Minutes to midnight. Esp what i've done. Speaks about what pandora's box has done to this world, hvwr speaks with images. Flashy images that pulls out information about that issue from my brain. Makes me sit down and think. Enjoy.

I did something super shocking today. Something i've never think myself do before 1/1/07. Super unexpected.. Go on, guess what it is... Okay i bought a chinese assesment book, on my own accord. HAHA! I'm determined to pull up my chinese socks. Someway or another, i believe i can. Getting 25/50 for the 2 tests in term 1 will be my pushing force. I have to improve.

During my 'thinking time' in the day, i was thinking of success, true success. What is success? Well the world would gauge how successful you are by how much you and your assets are worth, or some prints under laminated paper. How i measure success(in life) would be how you don't let other people affect your way of thinking/how you do stuff. I've realised that in this demented world that we live in, i admit that i am easily affected by the things people do/say to me. And most of the time it'd affect my mood, which affects my efficiency in doing stuff. So my guess is that humans are 100% efficient/driven when they are not affected by other people. So please make this world a better place by treating other people the way they deserve to be treated, well.

Glad

2007-04-06T23:20:00.000+08:00

Today is a very pleasant day. Its one of the days of the year when i feel really happy, full of joy. I cant explain this feeling. Its really weird, in a good way. I'm so happy that i have to stop my studying and come online to document this moment. It's a defining moment in my life. I've planted the seeds, but the harvest depends on the climate, timing and how far i would go to see these seeds grow, which must all be precise. Well, back to chemistry.

don't look back

2007-04-01T00:12:00.000+08:00

Today's a bad day, for arsenal. Like what the crap la, they lost to liverpool. The prev. 2 matches against them they won, but not this time. It kinda sucks to hear that your fav team has lost. Plus both clubs are eyeing bronze.

Lol. This whole week has been a rollercoaster ride, for me at least. There are these moments when im exceptionally happy. And the rest when i'm just moodless. And ive been day dreaming in class too much. Its times when i just get so overwhelmed with stuff that i choose to stone. If not i'd be doing something rather crazy. Or should i say, on the verge.

I cancelled something i was planning in my head on friday. It had already been planned out, but due to unfavourable circumstances, had to be delayed. Ive got so many questions, and no definite answer. Ive got so much to say, and no one's listenening.

think think think

2007-03-27T21:03:00.000+08:00

I cant believe how ms ting can put up with my behavior today. Lol. For some reason(i think it's the lack of sleep) i had a super bad headache this morning. It was killing me la. I was too flustered to think about anything but sleep. Lol. So during physics class i decided to rest my head for 5 minutes. But the next thing i knew was jason banging on my table saying: physics end already! physics end already!. Then i was like, what the.. i missed the whole lesson. I'm going to make up for it by doing well for the next test. Lol. . But apparently she caught Junting and not me. lol.

I'm going to learn from my mistake and sleep early. goodnight.

of what i really am,

2007-03-24T00:18:00.000+08:00

Firstly, i have to say that the learning carnival's a success. Do you agree with me? hah. I think the most enjoyable program of the carnival was the music appreciation workshop. It's more like a music lesson. We had some vocal lessons. And had to perform in front of the class in pairs or 3s. Next would be the mass movie thing at the cathay. It was quite enjoyable la.

Recently ive been having these weird mood swings. I think deep inside i know the reason why, but something in me wishes i'd rather not know. Cos, its...

Hakuna Matata

2007-03-20T23:12:00.000+08:00

Based on some observations and a tinge of personal experience, people(in general) should not be so predictable. Others would be able to estimate your every next move, or what you would be doing. Ultimately it'd lead to the stereotypification of your personality. Like how others see some in only a certain way, plus their view rarely changes. And its really nasty to stereotype someone. Haha. Like once someone does something, others say: expected la, expected la. K i think that's enough, cos wad im saying might be wrong. haha. but who's to judge.

That was inspired by the willingness to change. I MUST learn how to tame my tongue. Recently all the influences around me, good or bad, ve'caused me to realised what i am doing, or what is coming out of my mouth. I MUST practice self-control/discipline. My dad also complained: Recently you've been very crude ah. you must've picked them up somewhere. Then it dawned upon me that i HAVE to change.

Which doesn't kill you

2007-03-19T20:19:00.000+08:00

I'm pretty looking forward to the movie screening this friday. Haha. But their gonna leave us at dhoby ghaut at 9.30 in the evening. Appr. there's transport there and no transport back. :( Plus in the schedule there's 'motivational talk by principal'. My guess is that one day when the learning carnival planning committee was discussing and stuff, ms tan just walked in and ' i want to give a talk, please give me a slot to talk to the sec 4s'. then mr tan would go like 'ok'. haha. okay not that funny.

The holiday has been lots of fun for me. Lots of stuff happened. Which would take me a very long time to type out. We have to have better time management skills. So i'm not gonna try to attempt to describe my holidays. All i can say's that it was very colourful.

After some stuff that happened in my life, i've learnt that things that don't kill you make you stronger. I used to not believe in that. Suffice to say its real.

Monster.

2007-03-13T22:21:00.000+08:00

Lol i just watched finish protege. aha. Its very nice. Addresses the main issues of this world. Along with Lord of war, Blood diamond, the pursuit of happyness. All very nice movies. Not nice as in their effects and stuff, but their cause and where they're coming from.

And i jus came across this article in yahoo news: The U.S. State Department is offering $25 million for information leading to Osama bin Laden's arrest. That guy's serious man. So is the american govt.

I've realized i dont keep my words. And that's a really bad turn-off.

Like the knife which stabs,

2007-03-11T23:05:00.000+08:00

Sunday is like heroes' day. Lol. I just finished 7 episodes today. Nice...

As long as,

2007-03-11T00:38:00.000+08:00

Finally, after 1oooo years, i just got my staff rank. Lol.
Anw, samuel intro-ed me to saosin's voices. Though i dont like the high pitched vocals, i must say the drums are super tight. Lol. You'd agree with me, i guess. Before that, the only song ive heard fr em is seven years. Which talks about Christianity and the tribulations and stuff. But their intentions are. Ahem. lol.

Something jumped out of my 19" computer screen today. It's Jeannetterr's msn nickname:
You smile at me, inside i'm screaming i love you. Kinda describes the way i'm feeling now. But i'm trying to just let it all go.

Onward

2007-03-05T22:51:00.000+08:00

I'm super looking forward to the holidays. LOL. To the pt that i've already started neglecting my studies, like today's amath test, this thurs's emath test and this fri's geog test. Haha. Ive got my doubts about doing well. Cos i just burnt my sunday yst watching 10 epidodes of heroes. haha. VERY very nice. Back to the holidays, ive somehow got it planned already. heehee. What to do, its my nature to have fun. Lol. Like lighting a matchstick in class. !!!

Anw, the sports day heats are on wed. Lol. my 200m. hah. Hope i can make it into the finals. But seemingly impossible cos Fang yi's in my heats. LOL!. Nvm. Mind over matter. ciao.

Hang on

2007-03-03T15:26:00.000+08:00

Songs that jeannette intro-s are nice. Lol. I dont know what's her source. Since she intro-ed em to me, share the love :9. Hehe. Her most recent intro-s are five times august and tyler hilton. When u wanna chill, feel like listening to some acoustic alt., their the people to listen to. Very nice. I'm thinking of getting their albums. Haha. Along with infinity on high. hha. Cash. cash.

boo

2007-02-26T22:33:00.000+08:00

Haha thanks to firstly Mr Lee, and dinesh's parents, the punishments reduced to 2 CWOs and 10 dem. pts. And because of my loss in interest in NCC, i've jeopardized my staff rank. Lol. Anw, i screwed it the moment i chose to go for mt ophir instead of SSC. What a stupid mistake. Haha. Whatever la. I'm just going to move on and fufill my duties as the P.T.I and Training Head... Until i 'ORD'..

And while i was in the gym tonight, there were many fun encounters. Lol firstly, minutes after my entrance to the gym, there was this pretty girl that entered into the gym. LOL! Ok lets not go there. Then secondly, some My Chemical Romance songs played on my walkman while on the treadmill, it was alr after around 12 minutes of solid running. Lol. U know, i get rather flustered(ive no idea why) after running for quite some time, i was imagining that i was cutting their strings and smashing their guits during their jam session. Lol. I know, i'm weird. That wasn't all, While i was doing my crunches, suddenly- ting1 ma1 ma1 de hua4 played on my walkman. LOL! Haha. then i lost my motivation to work out. So i just had to enjoy the song for a while, before continuing, cos i thought of someone who has that album. Lol. And is rather impt to me. Haha. Go figure. haa 'WHAT A JOURNEY'

life's like that

2007-02-24T22:45:00.000+08:00

Well, for all that happened this week, i've got nothing to say. I'll bear all consequences, since i'm in the wrong. Lol. If that's what i get for satisfying my curiosity, all i have to say is life sucks, and s*** happens. But 10 demerit pts, 1 caning, 1 detention, counselling, and to inform parents for lighting a matchstick in class(which didnt even last for even a second) was the only fair punishment to ms ow, ... It's deterrence la. And if you're wondering what we were 'charged' for, it's endangering the lives of 1500 students. Which to me seems true. But its the 1st offence. Hahaa. Maybe its retribution for things i did in the past or something. Lol. Maybe i'm going through the trials and tribulations in my life.

But really, friday was the lowest and lousiest day of my life. I'm never gonna let something like that happen again.

Oh and i forgot to mention, haha i'm changing specs already. (: Finally, going to look smarter. Look ready for O's. Hhhaah.

CNY

2007-02-21T22:41:00.000+08:00

I'm just soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo BORED. Tml cy, aslam, shawn, and some other guys're comin over to my place. Lol. To play mahjong, and execute their secret(or not-so-secret?) plan. ;). Must win some money fr em. hahha. And on friday we're going to Napok's place to play mahjong. That pro, i bet i'm gonna lose some cash. I think i'm tired. Thats why i'm so lethargic and lifeless. Imma go sleep NOW.

V'day Eve

2007-02-13T22:40:00.000+08:00

Tml's vday. Lol. And i'm gonna spend it with most of my best friends. Gerald, Danyeow, Rufus, Ken. All brothers for life. haha. We're going to marina for steamboat in the evening. haha. Valentine's day's a day to celebrate love. For my case, brotherly love. heh.

enjoy your v'day! :)

No idea.

2007-02-10T22:56:00.000+08:00

The weather today was just- HOT. I kinda couldnt take it. Lol. Kinda got irritated by it. haha. The valentine's event at my church was just fabulous. It all seemed so, real. Almost brought me to tears. lOl. but being a strong ncc cadet. *hahaha.

And the most impromptu thing happened to me. I was chill-ing at island creamery and around 8.30pm. Then my dad called me, asking me if i was interested in going to holland v to drink some coffee, with my mom of course. Lol. Hha. We chilled for like a good 40 mins. hahhaa. So weird. Cos normally we dont do that. Hha. You go starbucks to spend time with your friends right? But nvm. Family bonding is impt. And i must add, the la mian at crystal jade at holland v's SUPER NICE. the xiao long bao is also YUMM. Hhaa. Been there quite a few times already.Wun get sick of it one. go try.

differentiate w.r.t eugene

2007-02-05T19:30:00.000+08:00

I think fob rocks. Lol. I like patrick's vocals. lol. Unique. Haha. This passion for fob sparked off by chunyang again. Cos he said he wants to go the their concert. And i think i'd be going. Must do something memorable this year. Like paying more than 50$ just to see a band jam. Hha. Now i've gt tons of their songs in my playlist. Their unplugged numbers are kewl too. And did you know they do some screamo. lOl. For ONE song only la- Saturday.

Speaking of concerts, I went to the jue dui superstar finals yst, with shirlynn, jac, chunyang, shawn, youwen and jeryl. Thanks to shirlynn for the tickets, of course. Haha. Yeah, i was there. Quite okay. Ironically, that was the first and last time i saw the series. as in that season la. So i didnt knw who they were/what they were singing. Had to keep asking shawn what they were singing. I'm not that much into chinese music. (expected right). And i didnt know chunyang has underoath in his playlist. Haha. I'm learning to sing 2 lines of screamo. Lol. I only can do one line. Haha. max.

Now i GUESS the situation in 4e3 has calmed down. I HOPE. Still wondering what i did actually helped, or worsened the situation. And I hope the CIP thing will be a success. And dun worry. i'll(or i hope) do a good job. The amount of CIP hours i'd have is the least of my worries.

Check it out

2007-01-30T22:58:00.000+08:00

Study study study... I'm actually studying for a test three days away. I've never done this before. Normally it'd be the day before the test then i'd start flipping the tb. Its a change in attitude i must say. Is that good or bad? haha.

My bro's cross country's tml. Haha. Wishing him all the best. haha. But for me.. What do i have on tml.. P.E, and other rubbish classes. =( But at least i dont have to stay back in school for extra lessons tml. If i'm not wrong, only wednesday of the odd week would be our 'off' day. Quite sucky. Anw i needa go catch some rest. See you soon.

What's the point

2007-01-29T22:12:00.000+08:00

And today i woke up with a TERRIBLE flu virus. The whole day had to keep clearing my nose. Felt like a puddle of mudd. In addition, i TOTALLY forgot about the english common test today. I'm such a sucker. lol. But lucky it was the essay kind of qns. =/ but still, sigh.

Sunday

2007-01-28T23:11:00.000+08:00

Today was total nonsense la. I woke up at 2pm man. LOL. It felt good, really. At least after the past 13days, i woke up later than 9am. Slacked through the whole day today, cause the week's been really REALLY crazy. So needed to ->unwind.

I'm looking forward to tomorrow. Mr Wong's(emath) not gonna make it to class and that gives us around 1 hr of free time. They're the 1st two periods. Pperfect.

Yesterday was rather cool. hah. Had flag day in the morning which was.. FUN. ;) *i heard teachers read blogs. Had a great time with augustine, zhanpeng, and sara. Haha. Our choco brownie. Then went to church. It was super exciting la. haha. You wont know what i mean if you're not there. haha.

And tomorrow's monday. But i dun really feel the 'monday blues' cause every weekday's the same to me, cause they're WEEKDAYS. no diff man.
Off to wonderland, ciao.

stand, stand strong.

2007-01-22T21:41:00.000+08:00

Recently i've got this little obsession. or maybe two. hah. One's for classical music. It gives me the feeling of flying outta my skin and into the sky. Like getting high on sth. Never fails to make me smile. Cos when i listen to those perky kind of music like those the piano stuff, i always think of happy things. lol. funny feeling.

And i'm planning to watch a concert at the esplanade. Please, anyone interested to go with me pls contact me. lol. or u can tag. Like those orchestral performances. And i'm a newbie in this kind of thing. Its new for me, so id nid some advice.

And ive jus joined glo's prayer group. hah. we(or are going to) have meetings every wed and friday mornings. haha. Making a difference in this school. haha. (: anyone interested to join pls tag me too.

AND WHEN YOU TAG, LEAVE YOUR NAME, OR DONT TAG AT ALL.

haha

2007-01-17T21:50:00.000+08:00

here's a review on WoW. haha. found it rather amusing.

There is no bigger PC game than World of Warcraft. This is, after all, the game responsible for uncountable lost jobs, broken marriages, and failed classes. It's also spawned one South Park episode, a mini civil rights crisis, an in-production movie, an epidemic, and at least one reported fatality.

i forgo-ed a visit to the gym in order to spend more time on math today. whats happening to this world.

oh that.

2007-01-12T23:17:00.001+08:00

i'm not gonna blog that much. cos the internet's been really irritating. hah. You should know what i mean. Unless you're a hubber. And finally the weekend has come. YEAH>>>. I didnt know sec 4 life is this boring. We've got extra lessons like, everyday? goodness gracious. And i cant go out as often as i did last year. Parental restrictions. =/ dun u jus love em.

BORINGboringboring

wow

2007-01-07T00:32:00.000+08:00

Finally the sec 1 orientation camp's over. and done with. I'm not going to attempt to describe the ups and downs of facilitating a class of 40 kids. my goodness. And of all classes i got 1n1. HOWEVER they won 3rd place in the inter-class pts battle kind of thing. WooWee. The past 2 nights i only got like 5hrs of sleep altogether. Its been really crazy and chaotic in this little life of mine. I feel for the camp comm.

After camp had to rush for cca open house. Had to open up the ncc booth. and practice our precision drill performance. lol. It went quite well la, at least we didn't screw up that much.

Cant believe 3 years of ncc have alr passed. Hope we(and juniors) can keep up with the 11years of gold. lol. The times we(part A' 04) had tgt. timeless i tell u. Well, greener pastures, greener pastures.. I tell u, ACJC here i COME>.

screwed.

2007-01-01T13:17:00.000+08:00

shit i'm so friggin screwed. lets account for all the holiday hws:
1)~~2 english compres~~+summaries
2) commonwealth essay
3) english essay
4) chinese(?)
5) amath paper(s)
6) emath paper(s)

and i hvnt done 5.5 out of the 6. NO.

isit so.

2006-12-22T23:24:00.000+08:00

Today was the sec 1 registration day. Quite fun la. Seeing all those kids. Its like the start of an evolutionary process. u compare what they are now, till what they are when they graduate. But a teacher became another wet blanket on the next day(doesnt make sense does it). Well cy got kicked out of school cos of an outlandish hairstyle. Lame la. But also bo bian wad. I hope ill (if i hvae the opportunity to) have fun with the 1t1s of 2007. during their orientation camp. Cos im their facilitator. lol. Christmas's on the way!
Btw, why do you celebrate christ-mas? i wonder... have u ever wondered?...

haha this song's hey there delilah by the plain white ts. Jeannetterr intro-ed me. its a song about long dist. r/s's. haha. not quite applicable right. but enjoy.

well,

2006-12-20T23:55:00.000+08:00

went to watch eragon today, with shawn chunyang and aslam. Its actually quite entertaining. Just that the scenes are very abrupt. Jump fr here to there. But the action scenes were tight. Melvin showed me the death note notebook he bought. lol. (its like a total waste of money. but he uses it for taking notes, so maybe its quite worth the 11.90/19.90. Same goes to yuenchi. Do math in a notebook used to kill people. LOL.) Oh yah back to the topic, i was thinking. if u wanted to kill malay people, their fathers would die too. okay thats enough. fyi, its not a racist remark, just so you know. but really, HAHA. -.-

WAH my dad just handed me a few pieces of paper. its like manna fr heaven. hhaha. cos he heard i was kinda broke after the xmas party and going outs. WAH. WAH. WAH. haha.

and i recieved an advance xmas present(to my 'doorstep'). lol. i was surprised. its got yoghurt in it. LOL. JOKE la. hahaha k tts enuf for today.

christmas

2006-12-19T00:51:00.000+08:00

Woah so many things have happened in 2 days. On sunday, i went out with my parents to watch some xmas performance kind of thing on sunday, at tangs. and to my surprise, its roof caught on fire. sway la. stupid sia. i go there listen abit then the roof catch fire. rahh.

today. went to eat sushi with yongkun and zhiwei in the aft, met jaslin there. i didnt know until she texted me. she was with zhiwei's friend. so coincidental la. Then in the evening i went to my church's xmas party. at bukit batok civil serveant's club. took a cab there. basket. the cabby took me to the wrong place la. went to some home team club place. :@. then cabbed fr there to the club. altogether the cost added up to like 20+$. crap man. But saw really pretty people there. Everyone was dressed to impress. took some photos:

As you can see, its prom-night style. so we all dressed for the occassion.

hang on

2006-12-16T22:40:00.000+08:00

if you're wondering why ivent been posting its because i was in church camp. Bought a new amp from the sale too, roland. its sweet la. make an epiphone sound like a gibson. ok maybe im exaggerating quite abit, but its really good.

stumbled upon this(i'm not biased or anything so dont beat me up) :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yapr0HMRC7k

About me, lately

2006-12-04T23:33:00.000+08:00

Ive developed a new way to eat wedges of oranges w/o using a fork/hand. so you wont have to dirty your hands. Lol. i know im lazy.

Finally the ncc camp's over. But church camp's coming. haha. Now must look out for potential cadets to take over our positions, as always, to take zhnc company to greater heights. Mr hazry said we(sec4'07) might be able to apply for overseas trips. Like india republic day and stuff. Provided its not that near o levels.

Woah i just camp back from camp on sat, then my bro went to his hockey camp today, until wed. then my parents are going KL on wed to sat. LOL. The house so dam quiet la. LOL. crappedup. My 'going out' rate has soared la. never eaten dinner out this much in a mth.

Come t think of it, i like going t tuition. lol. eugene'04 wont agree. But it really helps. But if u think that after o levels u can enjoy, its not that simple la, to me. Cos (hoping) theres still A levels, Uni exams etc. So, its not that simple.

U think ah, its not that good to have that much power. Take for example alexander the great, and adolf hitler. The former conquerd 90% of the known world by age of 25. e Latter rose fr a coporal to a general, controlling a powerful army. But in the end.. alexander became gay and died of some crappy disease. Hitler committed suicide right? not sure. aiya the ending is bad la. This reflection's cos of some movie i watched. lol. -you can now erase all this crap from your memory-

in my

2006-11-28T23:47:00.000+08:00

Sadly, ive quit my guit class and joined tuition. Its like, shedding my old self. And recently, my playlist's very weird. Ranging fr fort minor, to cute is what we aim for, to story of the year. Lol. Its like each song for every mood. Feels kinda good btw. lol.

Ive been thinking. Is having feelings a hint of weakness in character? Should i have like some hardcore ice-stone-hard heart. Anger, love, sympathy- sign of weakness? I really dont know. Theres this one side of me who really likes to think. lol. and theres another that likes to analyse, and another which likes to play, another which is serious. Well ive described myself. lol. four aspects. thats SO simple, eh? Just the %ges vary.

Camp on thurs. Jr's are going to die. DIE DIE DIE. YEEEOOWWWW.

to all the crowded rooms

2006-11-20T01:37:00.000+08:00

Ive started to like emo rock/hardcore. Btw underoath's a christian hardcore/metal band. lol weird right. check them out if youre still in doubt. silverstein and senses fail are nice too(their not THAT hardcore). more of rock actually. When you 'feel' the 'feel' then you start 'feeling' the music. the music makes you 'feel' better. im sure u dun get what i mean. unless uve been there. its rather difficult/impossible to appreciate screaming. unless you feel the same way, or want to do that yourself. Lol. through this para i can conclude that i like making sense.

Shooting competition's on tues, and if we get into the finals,(thurs). I think tts gonna be the last major event in this 4 yrs of ncc. hope i make the best out of it.

see to believe

2006-11-18T02:13:00.000+08:00

i think my sleeping habits/timings have changed. Like every holiday, id sleep at 2am and wake at 1pm. =/ quite sucky. Like now.. Feel so awake. But so bored... so ive come to blog. I packed my room today. Like changed its template to STUDY MODE. Everywhere its books now. No more games and trash. Just my black guit in the corner. The o's have ended. The expressions on some sec 4s faces, priceless i tell u. Nvm we'll be there in about, one year?

Now i have to diligently take down notes, treat my txtbks with tenderness, love and care, and everything in between. Its like the first time im serious about my life. lol. serious. seems like o lvls are very important. But still, easier said than done right. Well my FIRST step is to listen intently in ms TING's class.

So here are the rules:
1)PAY ATTENTION
2)NO LATE NIGHTS
3)TAKE CARE OF TXTBKS
4)STUDY MORE OFTEN
5a)TAKE DOWN NOTES
5b)CHERISH THE NOTES

Of course all these take effect when next year starts. The message's rather simple. Take your life seriously. We've got like, 6mths? when the year starts. CRAP thats short. And life's shorter... peace out.

deadly concoction

2006-11-15T00:51:00.000+08:00

the performance(s) for the e3 guys last night was 1- night only. lol. All because of jordon. All because of the deadly concoction. kopi peng gao + (mystery item) = a whole night of jumpiness. dont try this at home.

appreciate or die.

2006-11-12T21:03:00.000+08:00

drop dead, gorgeous?

2006-11-11T00:02:00.000+08:00

11.50. yet its so quiet. EVERYBODY MAKE SOME NOISE.
this morning- i woke up at around 6.40(as usual). i didnt plan on going to school. so i turned on the tv and started watching hbo. then i like stoned there and gazed at the magical box for like 15 minutes. then suddenly my mom came out of her room- YOU still HAVENT go to school? and it was like 7 la. so i bathed and grabbed my bag. left the house at around 7.15. so LATE. then went to school. reached at around somewhere 7:22(?) just to find out flag raising was uber early. :@.

DUHDUHDUHDUHDUHDUH

2006-11-09T00:00:00.000+08:00

tell me vat is vour nzame zand svat are zyou zoing zhere.

explore understand explain.

2006-11-07T21:19:00.000+08:00

Samantha's coming back next feb. For a week or so, so im waiting.

I'm considering whether to watch casino royale. Dont know if it has come out/its rating. The trailer looks nice.

saturday

2006-11-05T01:19:00.000+08:00

dont you just love saturdays. well i do. i slept like 11hrs last night. which is like twice my usual sleeping time on a weekday. Speaking of which, i found out that most of other sec schs have only 1 week of supplementary class. AH. anw im quitting guit class and joining tuition class. how BORING is that. sucks.

And now that 'holidays' have started, i cant help but keep spending my money. I already spent 1/2 my mthly allowance. how PATHETIC is that. and i saw a nice tshirt and long sleeve tshirt at pacific plaza. BUT no govt subsidy. =(. wait lor.

And if you're bored(which i think u are cos you're roaming around the internet), go check out the preview of gc's new album at http://www.myspace.com/goodcharlotte . New album coming out in 2007. WATCH THIS SPACE.

I want to try out senses fail on my guit now. :(. but its too late. crap. i figured out fob's sugar we're going down alr. i want to try sth more challenging. boooohoooohooo. lol.

Crap man. Next week i still have class. what a BUMMER. lol. ive noticed that ive complained alot. like a WOMAN. EEEEE.

week-in

2006-10-21T01:52:00.000+08:00

This past week i've been down with fever( wh comes along w/ cough and flu). Yet i dragged myself to school to get back results 1st hand. I was pleasantly surprised at my amath mark. I used to be a amath failure for like every test.

For this round of exams, i think i've improved. Its a statement. ;) I really hope to get into sa the year after. And my room's very, and i mean VERY messy. Papers here and there, books lying around, even on the floor. Flooded with trash. I need a maid. fyi- i dont have one :(.

I went to watch The Prestige today with cy and aslam. Its one of the most sophisticated movies i ever watched. Leave u 'wow.'. Then went to gas haus for gerald's gig. I was super disgusted when the first band came up. Wrong day la. All the bands were playing screamo/emocore/hardcore. Argh. Super irritating. Satanic crap. Cant even hear what they're shouting. The scariest part was the moshing pit. Everyone was moshing like mad, people got hurt. blood. lol. I call that the streetfight corner. There were a few uber emo guys. cant explain. Like they were doing some ritual. Sick la. I felt so DISGUSTED. I expected some punk/pop/rock. Not any shouting crap. like slipknot. That type. SICK. i rather stick with Hillsongs.

till then,

2006-10-10T22:30:00.000+08:00

I've got many post-exam resolutions. One of them is to keep practising my guit. I wanna rock hard. Now i'm just scraping the tip of the iceberg. Learn as much as i can. And i want to watch the guardian. Ive never seen ashton kutcher serious in films before, apart from alot like love, but he was still abit crazy. AWESOME.

Very weird, this time of exams is easier than mid year's, but like the amt of time decrease. Like english, emath,amath. I never had so little time to check my paper. maybe nowadays i very luo suo.

My idea of a perfect girl: A christian ballerina who's into rock and sports. (note: you didnt need to read this.)

night

2006-10-08T00:04:00.000+08:00

I'm like halfway through my exams. Whatever the result, i'd still be contented. Results, are like houseflies. i dont even know what i'm saying. Abit groggy. Sg's psi's well over 100. I think its friggin unhealthy la. I feel so fortunate to sit in my dad's car and drive through the streets when its all hazy and smoky. Just wait a while more, it'll go away. I heard its because of forest fires. Not sure if like its natural/man-made.

Some things i cant wait for(i was just thinking): mydriver'slicensemyfirstbeachpartymyfirsthangovermyfirstmillionmyfirstcarmyfirstapartmentmyfirstkissmyfirstpaycheckmyuniversitydegreemywife.

it makes me go like oh oh oh my goodness.

where do you run to,

2006-09-27T21:53:00.000+08:00

I've been so busy with things around me. So much to do. The past 2 weeks i couldnt bother about my computer. Cos the computer/internet was so screwed i didnt even touch it. Until now, it works again. I believe things will get back to what they were if you leave them alone for some time. You cant trust technology.

Samantha returned from china today. Pak meng, sherry and her had some gossip session from like 4-6 at the lounge. They said they had to update her on the spicy hot sauce around the school.

I had to get dinner myself today again. Quite used to it alr. But it was kinda last minute. Lucky i had cash in the house.

The end of the year's coming. Cant wait for sweelee's 50%off storewide sale. Im gonna get more gadgets for my guitar. Most probably get a better amp. But before that, exams. Cant avoid them la. So the only way is t go tru them.

Something to make you less bored:
one of my fav. songs/ my fav. song
check it out:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Snn96dUhHCk

And so it seems,

2006-09-08T23:24:00.000+08:00

Took the orienteering team on a 10 rnd run around the school. Rewarded those who could complete it with me with a cup of big gulp, each. Have to give them a goal. If not they'll be soOO slack.

Then went to chunyang's place to study. We did chem and phy. And of course, played for a while.

I'll not be home for a relatively long time next week. Or all of the weekdays of next week, rather. Home feels so empty. Now that my mom started working, i'll be alone at home until about 9+, provided my brother goes out. Increased freedom but decreased communication.

My dream:

I feel tired. And i shall go sleep.

i'm back.

2006-09-05T23:30:00.000+08:00

I am home. Finally. After those few days of climbing. I need to adjust back to my normal routines. You dont know what five days can do to you. The past few days have been filled with so many activities. But now when ive got nth to do. Jialat. Feel so pumped up but have nothing to do.

Uploaded the pictures i took already. But shant waste my time uploading them into here. Troublesome. The scenery there's superb. A+*. I kinda sorted out stuff when i was up there. Let go of all the emotional baggage i was carrying. Its only when i experience hardship and suffering that i can see what i'm made of. What really matters to me, what i truly feel. I'm pretty certain many revealed the foundations of their character.

I had many first-time experiences. And i bought many stuff too. Malaysia = cheap. i guess? heh.

Self-pity can be named the kryptonite of man.
Here's a definition from the merriam webster online dictionary:

Main Entry: self-pity
Pronunciation: 'self-'pi-tE
Function: noun: pity for oneself; especially : a self-indulgent dwelling on one's own sorrows or misfortunes.

You think. Think hard. Think harder.

Where sentences describe

2006-08-31T21:23:00.000+08:00

What a lousy teacher's day celebration. Though the performance was -> two thumbs up, the aces(?) day thing sucked, because of someone. Such a wet blanket.

I have not grown(cm-wise) since start of sec 2. My primary school friends are catching up, like really fastt. Maybe its the weights. They say lifting weights hinder vertical growth. whatever. May sound cliche, but i miss my primary school life. When i did lots of crazy stuff. Priceless memories la.

Then went to plaza sing to catch a movie w/ chunyang, lything and shirlynn. And there were other zhrians in the theatre. Scouts+ Girl guiders i think. Then went t eat sushi at heeren w/ sara, yuenchi and chunyang. Cos i havent eaten from morning till around 4.30. =@. Stuffed myself.

Tml i'm booking into amoy quee already. Hope not gg for ssc will be worth it.

If you know what i mean.

2006-08-30T23:09:00.000+08:00

Woah. Almost a week since i last posted. So long, so long.

Recently i've been studying real hard. Been real hardworking. I just wont let what happened during the mid years repeat itself. After exams i'm gonna have a good long rest.

Today's ms sunthi's last day with us. We thought she would get some nice round cake for us. In the end, it was a pound cake. Pound cakes are nice. Just that they cause you to gain quite a fair bit of weight.

I just found out that i cant sleep properly these few nights. Even with the comfort of my air-con i still find it hard to sleep. You know, when you try to sleep you just think of nothing and doze off. Well, i cant think of nothing. Or rather, i tried but failed. I just dont feel like sleeping, even when i'm freakin tired. Maybe its the STRESS.

Alot of people have been in my mind lately, they've gotta go.

sapped.

2006-08-28T22:59:00.000+08:00

I didnt touch my bag today. Went to take a nap when i reached home. watched dvds, tv, until now. I just feel so lethargic. Whatever la, i'm prepared to get scolded tml. I'm really tired of studying. Even chu jun considering to not go school tml. We all need a rest. Nvm. Going to climb mountain next week. I look forward to unwinding during that period of time when im on ophir. Hope i get some awesome pictures. >.<

We had another weird discussion on sex and pre-marital sex during ms ow's class. That set me thinking. What i think of when thinking of my first time would be what would happen in the morning after. Would i be rushing to zip up my trousers. or make breakfast for the one i love. Yuen chi says i'm just a kid, dreaming. Maybe he's a short-term-er and i'm a long-term-er. Anyway i wont feel good even if i were screwing around with girls i would meet at a bar. i just know it. But if you think of it, whats wrong with screwing around and disregarding the imptnce of your virginty. Well you're entitled to your own opinions.

one word: whatevr.

if you're fishing round 'ere.

2006-08-24T19:49:00.000+08:00

I got my motivation for physics yst. After recieving back the test. It proved that if i put in more effort in studying i can improve. So i'm aiming for 20 pts for my l1r5 this sem. Then 15 for the 1st 1/2 of next year. Then 10 for o lvls. I'm trying very hard, to study.

Finally its nearing the end of the week. Must have a good rest. Before the serious stuff starts.

hitting the right notes

2006-08-21T23:16:00.000+08:00

I just finished watching some concert on arts central. As the camera focused on each player, i noticed that they kept looking at the conductor. Then i wondered. Who/what's the conductor of my life. Well, who's yours. What drives me, what leads me on, what motivates me. But the music was very nice la. I like music. I like musicians. Particularly people who know how to play the piano.

Finally after so long, i went to the gym. To test my ankle. See if was still hurt, by exerting it by abit. Found out it was quite alright. Must get back on the exercise routine.

Btw, I only have like what, 3 weeks of studying left before eoy's. Cos of the camps. Hope i do well tho. I'm working hard alr know, except for physics. And well, i need to focus. FOCUS. like what pm said.

and sunshine heading your way,

2006-08-18T21:07:00.000+08:00

Havent been posting cause my motherboard's fried. When my dad switched on and off the power switch for a few times. So now ive to use my dad's labtop. =(

We(ncc) just recieved news that we've maintained our gold unit status for the 11/12th year. Quite glad la. You know. We have our sense of pride, though sometimes our guys can get abit -. We always strive for excellence.(i guess). lol.

I'm getting abit more serious about stuff. Relating to personal, academic, relationship aspects of my teenage life. Talking about teenage, i've finally realized the hidden desires/characteristics of about 1/2 of 3e4's population. Lol. After ms santhi's group assignment on teenage. lol. Its dangerous when you put english and rebellion together.

Finally, i've got nothing to say. lol. And i'vnt got to catch the lakehouse movie. Heard its quite nice. Is it?

vindicated

2006-08-07T22:34:00.000+08:00

My desktop's internet thing cant work. So i'm using my dad's labtop. hah. Dont you feel your life's surrounded by technology. Is technology good? I think its good. Lol.

The emath test today. Didnt really study much for it, cos i was too worried about the auditions. Graphs. Mystical curvey lines. Unfathomable pieces of crap.

I learnt that chewing gum is a way to hide your emotions. Think about it.

Finally, the auditions. What do you think? Not being negative(but realistic), i think we(our band) wont be able to make it into the performance itself. Well, i hope we do. But i had trouble playing, and singing. The coordination.. bleh. Nvm You all will see us again someday if we dun make it this time. :D hah.

My parents both dont want me t go run x-country. But i really want the medal. Gah, i have to wait one more year then. Bummer. Stupid ball..

Oh yah and I'm one step closer to my dream. To go obs. Not cos of all the rubbish activities, but because a few of my closest friends are going. It'll be so... nice.

teriyaki

2006-08-03T22:21:00.000+08:00

I cant get the fast and the furious 2 out of my head. Its very nice. I presume the cars dun move by effects. I hope not. hah. Plus their soundtrack. Addicted to it. Tokyo drift by teriyaki boyz. Very catchy. Has this particular flavour then gets me dancing to the music. You should go watch the movie, hear the soundtrack, you wont be disappointed. =)

Auditions on monday. Hopefully.. we get in. So we can soar to greater heights. heh. Our band name's Unidentified Flying Object. If you can make it, go check out the auditions. And pray i wont shiver. LOL. :)

wont let me down

2006-07-28T22:38:00.000+08:00

This morning woke up quite cheery. Cos i slept at 8.30pm the prev. night. Zao shui zao qi jing shen hao.My history group did something interesting for our presentation, a skit, cos we were too lazy to do anything else. The easy way out. Hope we're able to educate and certainly, entertain our audience. We seek to please. hah. Did we bring accross our message on troops? If something related to this qn comes out in any exam, you know roughly what it was like thanks to our speech. ;)

Me, shawn and lionel went for the macritchie recce thing. Quite fun. Very humid. But at least i have a rough idea of the route i'd be taking for x-country. then went home after eating dinner with parents which was after ncc training. hah.

I look forward to the end of this dark tunnel. Walking along this dim-lit path with you, but i cant seem to see your face. I think i have to stop looking back, but look to the side, and front. Where.. the grass will definitely be greener.

dashboard

2006-07-25T23:05:00.000+08:00

Finally got dashboard confessional's new album into my phone. After a pretty long wait. I'm looking forward to good charlotte's new album. Sure nice one. hah. It was their band that inspired me to take up the guit. I failed my amath test. By 1/2 mark. Pathetic. But ms leong inspired me and shawn, saying that she's impressed with our attitude. But we still failed la. What to do. Life has its ups and downs. Ups like emath and downs like amath. But i really think our paper was much more tough. That's my personal opinion.

The debate today, i'd say it would be 3e4 v. 3e6. Hah but tagore still won anyway. The vocab and grammar of the debaters- marvellous. If you could hear a bit of their best written work. All i can say about death penalties.. All you have to do is face your conscience. Pay the price for your actions.

You choose where to plant your seeds. On fertile ground. On rocky ground. On concrete. Or dont even give the seeds a chance to grow. The environment in which you nurture the plant. The time and effort spent. All would determine the lifespan of the plant.. something i learnt from the Bible. Claimer: Can be applied in any aspect of your life.

and after all,

2006-07-24T23:27:00.000+08:00

We're seriously considering whether to audition for teacher's day concert. Hope.. We'll form up and get to practice tgt asap. I've learnt that within difficulties lie opportunities. I decided to go for it. Well after i get more approval from above, and those around, then i'd be able to express myself better, more openly. Dont get what i'm talking about right. i guess. hah.

I'm going to take it slow. Not too fast, not too slow, just the right speed. I'm sure if we're really committed and determined, against all odds we'd get a good outcome. no one knows. only God. Give me wisdom, direction, and strength.

whatever

2006-07-23T20:15:00.000+08:00

Finally going jamming after so long. This sunday. But we need to find more people to go. So we can split the cost. Hope it wont be a waste of time. lol. Like last time. hah. And now i'm going to start saving money for a new guit, an amp and a few pedals. Until the end of the year. When swee lee has the annual 50% off storewide thing. I'll camp over with zhengyan, maybe with gerald too. hah. untill then. scrimp and save.

Times like these are rare, when the stars all align, when time and tide waits for man.

late posts

2006-07-22T22:31:00.000+08:00

many unexpected events happened. Things that were anticipated but unprepared for. Things that suddenly popped out of no where. so confusing. Are these things good? or bad? ive to make a choice. Will the outcome be good? or bad? The suspense, the uncertainty. kills me man.

Something ive been waiting so long finally came, but when it came, something holds me back. why? i just dont understand myself. i need direction. i need advice.

since when?

2006-07-21T23:31:00.000+08:00

ive been MIA for quite sometime. Too busy with stuff. Now that ive got abit of time im blogging, as you can see. The chem spa o lvls was.. hopeless, pathetic. You should know why. Such a simple concept i cant get it right. lol. I got tricked by the question. Bad qn.

I'm not sure about this, but maybe me and zhengyan'd find a bassist+ drummer and audition for teacher's day concert. or maybe outdoor/ external gigs. He asked me today. lol . My goal. Perform. Most prob he'll be lead vocals/guit. and i the rhythm guit/backup singer. Maybe next year. And he found a jamming studio near his house. Finally.

I feel that these days, i'm very desperate. Desperate for what/who i do not know. I just dont know what i want. Sometimes i feel that she's hurt me so bad that i forgot how to love.

once in a while

2006-06-24T22:47:00.000+08:00

today's chun yang's birthday. Lol. our surprise plan kinda worked. Xinyun told me he was kinda pissed when he went to tuition in the morning. Cos apparently he thought ALL of his friends forgot about his birthday. BUT we didnt and did some nice stuff for him. Went to celebrate at bishan with jeryl, tahjian, kellie, shirlynn, lything, ziyu. Quite fun. Went thai express to eat. then to swenson's for dessert. Hm. then i went church. -> If there's nothing worth dying for; there's nothing worth living for. Then went to watch just my luck with gerald. Joan didnt go, sadly. haha that was my day.

recover me

2006-06-18T12:14:00.000+08:00

Went to camp from 14-16. Now i'm a ncc specialist. I have a cookie. Plus a sergeant rank. This would only mean i can pump people. lol. Learnt alot of things about leadership in the camp. If i were to be one of the heads in ncc i'd make major changes. for the better la. Theres alot of cleaning up for my batch to do.

That aside, i'm faced with the possibility of not being able to make it into jc and might have to settle with poly. quite scary though. i'm just afraid. nvm I'm changing. Hope i improve yea.

inside my head

2006-06-12T19:31:00.000+08:00

i removed my blog song. though it sounds super nice and is a song i want to put in my hp when i get it back, or if i get a new one. Cannot dance to the groove already. =(. hah cos i realized many popups come out then bala say got spyware or sth. sad la. now its soundless. but sightful. hah. Booking in spec course this wed. Going to be in a total guy community for 3d2n. sucks. lack of the female species. lol. just KIDDING. but the food, accomodations, facilities, staff, will all suck. but nvm. thats the price of saying knock it down. i tell u.. when i see my junior come action in front of me.. they will get it. lol. once i get my cookie. haha i not so bad one la RIGHT?? haha. hope u agree. lol.

this bitterness and,

2006-06-07T23:57:00.000+08:00

I did some spring cleaning. Summer cleaning rather. Due to stuff i was feeling rather, pissed. Or rage-y. So in order to get my mind off it i channelled emotions into doing something productive. Packed my room, cleared all the trash so there's proper working/walking space. At least i accomplished something.

And what great news, chun yang's mom opened their place for me and jarrett to stay over at his place. =D for the world cup opening match. hah. we're gonna party all night. Yeah. And for all the people taking spec course and sjab people, too bad la. Their gonna miss the start of a beautiful event. the WORLD cup. hah.

And guess what, my good pal has returned from sabah. She enjoyed herself alright. hah. Goodbye to loneliness. HAH.

urls

2006-06-04T21:25:00.000+08:00

Something for those out there anticipating the world cup:
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/12888810/

>>enjoy

show me

2006-06-03T20:15:00.000+08:00

If i think about it.. I could be in sabah now. lol. If i hadnt signed up for some stupid kayaking expedition which seniors did not tell us anything about. My friend from presbyterian high went for it. I could be there right now. If it werent for lousy seniors lol. what to do. I wish i were out of singapore. I HOPE thered be further oppotunities as such. which i doubt there'll be. And the people at sabah are eating seafood dinner at a seafood restaurant la! How great is that. Unlike puny sized fishies and stuff from local stalls. Wah. I'm starting to whine. lol. NVM NEXT TIME WILL HAVE ONE.